Find Peace in the Storm

Sometimes people don’t understand just how much their words can affect someone. I know this first hand because I grew up with a mother that was constantly telling me I was never good enough, and for the first few years of my adult life, I found myself believing that was true. It wasn’t until recently though, after I got married and had a baby that it got worse. You would think that after all these years and seeing as we are now BOTH grownups that she would approach me differently, but sadly that was not the case at all. This has caused us to now be on non-speaking terms and to be honest I feel like my life has become a whole lot more happier and positive since.


Depending on the type of person you are you have two options when you are presented with this type of issue in life:

1) Let their negativity and hurtful words eventually destroy you OR

2) Get up, and prove to them (and yourself) that they are wrong

No one should have the power to make you feel like you are worth nothing because you ARE worth something. You were not a mistake. You were put here on earth for a reason and it is up to you to go out there and find that reason. Use what you are good at to share positivity and goodness around the world.

People who bad mouth you or talk about you have their own insecurity issues, that is not your problem, its theirs so just dust yourself off and do you. Move on to better things, it might not happen overnight but it is a transition that will be well worth it in the long run.

Yes, this is easily said than done and believe me I know. I was constantly beating myself down and feeling like I was everything my mother told me I was – dependant and unable to look after myself let alone another living being. And I do know how the hurtful words can be painful and pierce you like a thousand knives over and over until you feel so caged in you can’t see past anything anymore and your vision of the future is blurred, making you feel it’s impossible to ever break free.

But I have news for you my friend. No matter how horrible the pain, no matter how hurtful the heartache, there will always be a bright light at the end of the tunnel. Nothing comes from nothing. Success & achievement comes from those who work hard at it. So my advice for anyone who has been beat down and feels like they cannot go on is this:

Today is your opportunity to do amazing things. Amazing things can be as small as helping a stranger. It’s up to you to go out there and find what it is that makes you stand above the rest. Chase your dreams and don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t, because the only person that will ever stop you from achieving what you want in life ... is you. If you had a bad day – congratulations, you are human. Everyone has bad days – it is up to you how you will take these bad days, you can either concede or admit defeat or you can fight back and believe you can overcome it.

Whatever the pain, whatever the sorrow and heartache, just know that there are others out there just like you that feel this kind of thing all the time too, you are not alone, and you can choose to be an example to them that when you were at your weakest, when you were down and out , you put your feet to the ground and pushed upwards, fighting for that first breath of freedom from the negative chains that held you down for so long.

I believe in you x

Re-Vamp 2.0

So, for the last few months I have been on hiatus because my trusty laptop "James" who I have had for over 6yrs died a very honorable death. As you can imagine I was upset because I couldn't do the things that I loved the most - write and blog. So after months of other priorities and nothing my darling hubby decided to go out and find me a replacement whom I have named "Toby".

Now that Toby is all up and running and set up to the way I want I can finally update my blog with a re-vamp (again).

While on Hiatus I realized a few important things:

1) I am not a celebrity blogger,
2) I have no reason to be talking about fashion coz lets face it I am not really that kind of person and
3) I have strayed from the real reason why I had set up a blog in the first place 6 yrs ago.

I remember when I first got "James" and signed up to this blog site, I thought finally here is a place where I can actually write the things that go on in my head, the deep questions, the whys and hows of life, the real stuff.

So after "James" died I had time to think about what I really wanted to do, what I was passionate about and so I have decided to go back to where I feel most comfortable. So there you have it, going back to basics. Im super excited about it, as well as a little bit scared. But as long as it makes me happy, its all that matters!! Peace & Love x

New Music Update!!

Watch "Stooshe | Black Heart (Official Video)" on YouTube

Shooshe - Black Heart. I first heard this song on the radio and for some reason it caught my attention. The lyrics are what intrigued me at first. The chours chimes in with "Daddy I've fallen for a monster..." which, sadly every woman can relate to, and the rest of the song are along the same lines. Mixed with the smooth beats of what I can only discribe as the "60's & 70's" feel (think diana ross & the supremes)this song gives you that throwback feel of the more relaxed days.

I am thinking it will really blow up around Spring/Summer 2012 here. These lovely ladies hail from the UK, which is where a lot of breakthrough artists are coming from this year, so watch out for them...I think they will definitly be busting through 2012/2013 with their unique yet sassy style of music, not to mention fashion sense.

xx

The Gap is Back!!

Ok so this is not exactly the GAP I was talking about but you know what I mean hehe. So I have been on this health buzz for just over 3 months now and I am so pleased with what I have managed to achieve over that period of time. Not only have I lost approx 10kgs, but I have managed to get the gap in between my thighs back!! Some people may think that is not much of an achievement but my gosh, I tell you, it has been so long since I had seen it I almost fainted when I noticed it was back. I had been so use to having my inner thighs rub togehter when I walk it felt foreign & good at the same time. Its little things like these that make me feel so good about myself. I set out to achieve a goal and pushed well past it, which makes me feel amazing. I can not wait to keep going & finally achieve my goal weight!! Onwards and upwards from here...

15 Random Facts Tag x

#1. What's a nickname only your family calls you? Gosh i never really had one to he honest...i know boring aye? Lol

#2. What's a weird habit of yours? i straighten things when they are crooked or uneven.

#3. Do you have any weird phobias? I have mild OCD where everything has to be in straight lines or in even groups, otherwise i cant concentrate and get mildly anxious.

#4. What's a song you secretly LOVE to blast & belt out when you're alone? it varies, depending on the mood but ALONE by HEART is always a fav...

#5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves? White socks under black pants (only MJ is allowed to pull that off lol), teenages that disrespect their elders and when people pour tomato sauce on a meal after i spent hours cooking it. Lol

#6. What's one of your nervous habits? Awkard shifting

#7. What side of the bed do you sleep on? Left

#8. What was your first stuffed animal & it's name? it was a white seal aunty sina bought for me at sea world when we were in san diego when i was 9yrs old for the LMS trip, it had no name but it was a fav of mine for a while.

#9. What's the drink you ALWAYS order at starbucks? Grande while chocolate mocca :)

#10. What's the beauty rule you preach.. but never ACTUALLY practice? clense, tone, moisturise lol i do the latter but im too lazy to do the other two hehe

#11. Which way do you face in the shower? um the front? Haha thats a weird question??

#12. Do you have any 'weird' body 'skills'? i have a bendy thumb.

#14. What's a phrase or exclamation you always say? It depends on what emotion i am feeling lol

#15. Time to sleep- what are you ACTUALLY wearing? trackies & a tank top.

That was fun, thankz Vee x

Lifes Luxuries

I’m usually not one to be materialistic, but I have to admit, these are one of my ultimate wish list items. Since having a bub, large totes have been a convenient and time saving piece of of my must-have wardrobe. These are not exactly cheap, or costly but definitely one (if not three) things I am hoping to purchase this year. *sigh* small pleasures in life are no longer a priority, but a luxury we sometimes can’t even afford.

That’s life tho, and I’m not complaining. I’m alive, I’m healthy and I have a beautiful wee family…luxuries can definitely wait :) xx
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Sometimes you just got to scream

It’s insane how sometimes life can be going along smoothly and then BAM everything is turned upside down. We’re always thinking “it’ll never happen to me” and then one unexpected day the unthinkable happens and you just can’t think of anything else to do but to try run to the ends of the earth and SCREAM your ass off.

Of course, this is physically impossible but it’s a feeling we all have felt sometime in our lives, and probably more than once…and why not, with all the frustrations life throws at us why not let off a little steam about what irks you or rubs you the wrong way, think of it as soul cleansing - you can’t possibly keep that frustration inside, so let it out. Weather it be by literally screaming, writing it down (which is what I do hehe) or putting it in a song - whatever…just get rid of it and move on.

Trust me, once it’s out of your system, you’ll feel brand new xx

Tradition - Gotta Love It!!

Its funny how some traditions come about in life. This dawned on me when my husband gave me my usual birthday gift of an Easter Egg. Now I know this seems strange to most people when they ask me what my husband got me for my birthday. But to me its the most romantic thing ever because he still remembers something that he started many years ago when we first got together.

That got me thinking about just how special Traditions are - weather they be birthday traditions, christmas traditions or just family traditions in the household. They are things that we do with people we love to remember just how special it was the very first time it came about - the history, the feelings around it and the stories of the ones before are what make us keep them close to heart.

But sometimes, due to no fault of their own, traditions die. I know this sounds sad and morbid but it is the reality of human nature and the changes that come with time. The most common cause is mostly because some have become outdated and old school to the next generation and they find it boring or mundane ... and sometimes we just forget that we care.

Society, social change, even money can be a few reasons why Traditions fade off into oblivion, never to be seen or heard of again. Sometimes they are forgotten because someone significant has moved on, or passed away and some just simply may have run their course and died a natural death.

Whatever the reason may be, I challenge you to think about the Traditions in your life, the ones you may have had as a kid, or ones that you may have created along the way in your life. Try to remember the exact moment it became a tradition in your life and breath some fire back into it for your children, your nieces/nephews - or anyone new in your life.

You never know, you may start a few new Traditions along the way :)

Peace & Love xx

2012 - The Year of Change

Well, again I have become guilty of starting something and then not quite completing it. Yes, I did try to re-viltilize my blog in 2011 when I was on maternity leave, and for a while there I did succeed. But as you all know, circumstances change in our lives that have the power to shift ones perspectives, prorities etc, and for me (and my family) nothing is more life changing then losing a parent.

So, after a long and very tiresome 6 months of 2011 we entered into 2012 with big hopes and dreams which we are both determined to see through. No excuses seem to be enough now to keep us from achieving what we so clearly deserve after months of trials and hardtimes. So we arrived at the doorway of 2012 with a fieceness that will push us to complete this goal of making 2012 the year of change for us.

Yes, it is already the 3rd month of the year, but that is not to say that nothing has happend thus far. Tiny changes have made big impacts on our decision making over the last 3 months, and as time goes on, 2012 will open up a whole heap of opportunities and visions to complete.

So far, so good. I can not wait to see what else is in store for me and my wee family. God is certainly good to us, even after the storm, he still provides that rainbow of hope to show he is still there.

Onwards & Upwards xx