Forget baby number two, here comes baby number three!!

Ok I know I said in my last post that I was going to be more active on here blah blah blah, well you know what they say about old dogs new tricks lol. Yes I once again went though several years of neglecting my poor blog to once again  come back and announce...another baby!

This time it was a boy! Yes after 2 lovely girls we were finally blessed with a Son, he was a pleasure to carry again as per my prev post I was still going to the gym and exercising when I fell pregnant, actually we were on our holiday in America when we conceived which was awesome, it will always be a story for us to tell our son when he grows up hehe....but anyway  because I was still on my health buzz this pregnancy to was a great one, I was healthier although I did get more tired but only because I had a toddler as well that was very clingy, but thankfully my husband took on most of the grunt work with my girls that I was able to be a little less stress free.

Anyway son Arrived 1 day before his due date, he was huge!! 9 pounds 4 ounces, which is one of my biggest! His shoulder got stuck and delivery was difficult but he got out in the end, he was a little banged and bruised up but he was healthy and strong that is the main thing.

We named him Soafa Mathew (Jnr) Alaifea, he is the most adorable thing but my goodness is he fussy! lol I find he is fussier that the girls were but maybe that was just me, after having two girls.

So now I am on maternity leave again, this time permanently as my position at work has been made redundant. So I am an at home mum full time for now until I go and look for another job, which I am hoping will be in a field that benefits the community or less fortunate somehow and also is closer to home.

That is me now, and I think I will have more time to write on this because well I have no reason not to, I have always had thoughts about where my life will lead and now that I am in a position where I can finally do something beneficial for society I want to try because its about what makes us happy now not how much salary I can make.

Always food for thought :)

And here comes baby number two!

So true to form, I completely ignored the fact that I had a blog and started living life to the fullest, I had a new lease on life with all the weight I had lost, I was more active, I had more energy to go out and do things with my husband and daughter and I just overall felt like a new person,

Then suddenly a little blessing happened, We got pregnant and I am currently expecting baby number two. The best thing about this pregnancy though, is that since I had a better start weight I have had such a great time carrying. I am due in a out three weeks and still people can not believe I am pregnant as I only look it from the front...as in if you were looking at me from behind you couldn't tell I was sporting a baby bump.

So getting ready for baby number two is not has frighting as it was for number one, firstly because I know what to expect this time round and I am not as heavy as I was before. I have 3 more days left at work and then I will be relaxing out until my lil princess #2 comes.

Once she is here and we are settled in, I will start my journey again with weightloss and hopefully have more time to document it like I did before, this time tho, I am hoping to show my progress from start to finish!

Wish me luck x

Fitness really does change your life!

About a year ago, according to the timeline on my blog, I embarked on trying to do something for myself. A small goal of losing weight and trying to eat better and exercise more. I joined up at a gym and even took some personal training sessions for the first seven or so months. I was so determined to try and finish something, or accomplish something for once in my life. 

So here I am one entire year later and I am so happy to announce that I did it. I have lost approx 20kgs and am looking slimmer and better than ever. I have also become more social and happy because I feel like I have accomplished something so amazing that I know many people struggle with. Of course I am still so keen to continue with this new "me" and have been trying to push others to do the same...its been so great seeing myself transform and gaining back my confidence which I had lost when I put on all those kgs after I had the baby.

Not only am I confident, I am happier. I feel like I am a brand new me. I know how to live better and I am always keen to exercise more when I can. Its amazing how something so small, once achieved can really push you to do more with yourself and be a better person.

So there you have it. One thing in my life I have managed to accomplish. I am hoping that I can continue this for a long time. I know one day I will probably have another child but if that happens then I will make sure that this time I do all I can to keep the weight at at minimum and keep the exercise going. It will definitely be a challenge but one that I am willing to give a go.

So here it is everyone, my final accomplishment of weight loss. So proud of myself and I am going to continue till I am satisfied I am at my ideal weight, probably another 5-10kgs to go.

Go hard or go home x

2013 - A year of living

Ok, so I have just looked at my blog timeline and over the last 12 months I have only posted 9 posts.

Every year I start out the same, saying I have neglected my blog and promising I will keep up and on top of it and so far every year has delivered the same result. 

Disappointment. 

It seems I am my own roadblock to achieving even the simplest of goals. I always say to myself that I am going to be more attentive to my blog and write about interesting things, but the truth is, I had no clue, and probably still don't.

So this time, I am only going to promise that I will write about what I am living. How the world looks to me at this particular time in my life. Ok so that may sound a little boring, and hey, it probably will be, but if I keep up with it, maybe I will open up the untapped creativity that I know is lurking somewhere inside my brain.

So, this year - I promise myself to start living and doing what it is that I love to do - Write. I don't know exactly what kind of writing I will do, possibly a book or a script of some sort, but I want to stop procrastinating and finally do something about it. Get out there, learn something new. Create. No more fear of rejections from peers or colleges. Time to put my mind to it. Apply it.

There you have it. My proclamation to the world. I will see it through. I believe. Lets hope I don't let myself down again.

I am here and I am going to live for me x

Find Peace in the Storm

Sometimes people don’t understand just how much their words can affect someone. I know this first hand because I grew up with a mother that was constantly telling me I was never good enough, and for the first few years of my adult life, I found myself believing that was true. It wasn’t until recently though, after I got married and had a baby that it got worse. You would think that after all these years and seeing as we are now BOTH grownups that she would approach me differently, but sadly that was not the case at all. This has caused us to now be on non-speaking terms and to be honest I feel like my life has become a whole lot more happier and positive since.


Depending on the type of person you are you have two options when you are presented with this type of issue in life:

1) Let their negativity and hurtful words eventually destroy you OR

2) Get up, and prove to them (and yourself) that they are wrong

No one should have the power to make you feel like you are worth nothing because you ARE worth something. You were not a mistake. You were put here on earth for a reason and it is up to you to go out there and find that reason. Use what you are good at to share positivity and goodness around the world.

People who bad mouth you or talk about you have their own insecurity issues, that is not your problem, its theirs so just dust yourself off and do you. Move on to better things, it might not happen overnight but it is a transition that will be well worth it in the long run.

Yes, this is easily said than done and believe me I know. I was constantly beating myself down and feeling like I was everything my mother told me I was – dependant and unable to look after myself let alone another living being. And I do know how the hurtful words can be painful and pierce you like a thousand knives over and over until you feel so caged in you can’t see past anything anymore and your vision of the future is blurred, making you feel it’s impossible to ever break free.

But I have news for you my friend. No matter how horrible the pain, no matter how hurtful the heartache, there will always be a bright light at the end of the tunnel. Nothing comes from nothing. Success & achievement comes from those who work hard at it. So my advice for anyone who has been beat down and feels like they cannot go on is this:

Today is your opportunity to do amazing things. Amazing things can be as small as helping a stranger. It’s up to you to go out there and find what it is that makes you stand above the rest. Chase your dreams and don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t, because the only person that will ever stop you from achieving what you want in life ... is you. If you had a bad day – congratulations, you are human. Everyone has bad days – it is up to you how you will take these bad days, you can either concede or admit defeat or you can fight back and believe you can overcome it.

Whatever the pain, whatever the sorrow and heartache, just know that there are others out there just like you that feel this kind of thing all the time too, you are not alone, and you can choose to be an example to them that when you were at your weakest, when you were down and out , you put your feet to the ground and pushed upwards, fighting for that first breath of freedom from the negative chains that held you down for so long.

I believe in you x